TIME MARCHES ON

It's probably a good thing I'm the age I am. The technical world is just getting too complicated for me. I don't want that to happen. I want to keep going. I keep telling myself that I still have the brain power to investigate new technology, but it just isn't happening. I wondered why. I've decided it is because I now need help and those that are younger don't want to bother with the likes of my generation. Everything comes so easy to them. I remember when things came so easily for me. New software programs were a piece of cake and I took on each one like an old friend. In no time I saw similarities between them. I could take on any contract because all I had to do was look at the software and knew immediately how it operated. Those were the good old days...heady with pride.

I don't want to let go of those days. I'm fighting but I seem to be taking two steps forward and three backwards. I refuse to go quietly. It's not time. There is still so much to do.

All of this is because I have managed to survive two computer crashes in less than a month, bought a new computer, loaded programs, spent hours looking for lost data on the old one. Looking at the new programs is so exciting. There are so many improvements that I love. If only they had been there in my active writing days..what fun it would have been.

I thought I was making progress and getting back on my feet. Then, bang! Another surprise. My email provide was sold and I had to change my email address. More changes. Now I'm willing to roll with the punches but do they have to come so often and so fast. The world is spinning out of control. How I long for the days of my growing years. It was quiet. You could take your time. You could think. You could savor. You could dream. Nothing was impossible. Does anyone dream anymore? How sad. There's no time for that anymore. I cannot go back now and at the same time I struggle to go forward and keep up the pace. I feel caught between to wonderful worlds. But given a choice - I'd go back in a minute.